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09 August 2008
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people really do change quite fast. i've mentioned this quite a few times, and i can't help but to just keep believing in it and hoping for it to come quick. i can't wait for school to officially end, where i can just walk away from everyone and begin new, begin being quite alive. those people i knew from primary school, from secondary school - all changed. for the better, or not.i guess i cannot blame anyone for me not liking change. i really can't wait to walk away and stop pretending everything is just the same. you meet new people, your perceptions change, you don't hold on to the values you once believed in. no one stays quite the same, they all change somehow but i just can't adapt to it. oh hell, jc life was fun. it was havoc and wild but it's not quite my way of life. like the other day, san and i were talking during sastera and i told him i wanted to get back to primary school. heck those times were the best. there wasn't a worry on my mind, at all. i hate lying to myself, telling myself it'll all fall in place soon, back to square one where all was fine and dandy. fuck shit, i hate changes and i hate how because of my own values i end up hating people around him. i try so hard, so much. i quoted this off somewhere. "when one person tries so hard, the other person's effort seem subtle no matter how much effort he puts in. so the relationship dies when the person who tries too hard decides its too tiring for her." that is so true. i feel like crying and caving in. why is it that everytime i sit down and think everything is okay, it just comes up all over again? i'm counting down to the days i say goodbye to all of this. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
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